19 Going On 15

My parents have always been very strict with me. Curfews are early, partying is limited, and even hanging out at the house with my friends is under their control. I am 19 years old and am still very restricted to many privileges.
My parents are my everything, and disobeying them breaks my heart. Since i was in middle school, I have been imposed strict rules and was expected to follow them every day. Nowadays, following these rules has become not only a hassle, but a barrier that restrains me do do many things I want to do.
I watched my friends grow up too fast. While all my girlfriends wore heels and owned cell phones, I wore Keds and asked for permission to use my house phone. My parents made sure that my childhood lasted as long as it could and I now thank them for that. Although these rules have become daily headaches and my friends constantly complain about them, i make an effort to follow them.

The Things I Worry About

Oh man, where do I start?

I have the very bad habit of worrying about the things that I have no control over; the things that will happen regardless of what I do to prevent them from happening. One very good example is that one of Adrian being sent to Iraq; you see, I KNOW it's going to happen, and i still worry over it.
I worry about my sister. She has Down's syndrome and I am one of the keepers of her destiny. It is up to my family and i to get her going on a successful path.
I worry about school, about the things I have to pay for... I am very concerned about my health since I have this disgusting rash on my arms, and most importantly.... I worry about my own future.

Too many worries in my opinion...

(eunice)