Monday, April 16, 2007

...And the Thunder Rolls...

I believe that if you analyze a concept, situation, or problem long enough you will reach a solution. Research, interpretation, and good ol' fashioned thinking will get you there. You will attain even more success if you seek the help and advice from others.
I have a problem. A big problem. It's name is Adrian. This problem has persisted for a year and a half and I'm not only starting to get drained from it, I'm getting ready to call it quits. When a person tells you that they care, they should demonstrate it. Our relationship was so much better when he was gone, at least he called. I'm tired of getting stood up, I'm tired of waiting for nothing, and I'm tired of wasting time. I already tried leaving; it was a plan that crashed and burned. The worst part is that I think that it's way too late to leave. I am already deeply immersed, addicted and obsessed with him that leaving would only make me feel worse. His smile is always present in my mind. Who am I gonna come home to? Who's gonna always find a way to make me giggle? When something great or bad happens to me, I find myself yearning to tell him. Adrian's my secret keeper. There are too many things on this earth that remind me of him too much; the military happens to be one of the big ones.
No matter how much I cry, or how dramatic I sound, he never changes. I've attacked my problem in many ways- all in which have let me down...way down. There's a fight every other day... My brother tells me, "How can you guys fight? There is nothing you two can fight about...you're too perfect together."
The worst part of the situation is that we indeed are perfect for each other. Adrian gets me. He just does. . . Now how am I supposed to get rid of someone who gets me?

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