Getting married is something that me and many other girls dream of. Other than your sweet sixteen, it's really the only day when all the attention is on you. I have many fantasies about this special day but the doubts consume me. What if I choose the wrong guy? What if I gain weight last minute and my dress doesn't fit? What if nobody comes? What if we run out of alcohol? What if he's sterile!!!
I know I'm exaggerating quite a bit, but you never know. The person I'm with at the moment is very different to who I expect to end up with. I imagine myself with a tall, athletic-built guy with bright blue eyes. I'd love for him to have Texas drawl and his hair would have to be dirty blonde. Although my man is nothing like that, I would love to get 'hitched' to him.
The thing that scares me is that I would have to spend the rest of my life with one man. It's hard for me to keep my eyes set on one guy for more than a month (although Adrian is the only exception), would I be able to last a lifetime? Turning the question around, would he be able to support me for the rest of our lives? I can only imagine. To me, divorce is not an option; if I choose a man to be with me till my last day, it's gotta be because really, truly love him
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