As I drag my feet past the recent heartbreak and breakdown, my eyes seem to open wider than physically possible.
Two years ago, I had them all in the palm of my hands- and mind you, I was a little heavier those days. Rounder cheeks and all, I had no trouble finding attention. Was I a happier person then? Today, those wiser than me say people see the sadness in my eyes; they see the restlessness and want nothing to do with it. Others think I need to wait for it to come to me.
What I want to know is the following: How can I not become impatient? How can I not want the next thing to be in front of me this minute? It's easy for people to give me advice, it's easy for me to agree and accept it, but it's extremely difficult to apply it. What makes the situation annoying is that I attract the wrong people. Whether they be married, taken, unattractive or unwanted, I continue to draw these guys.
I know what you're thinking. Typical boy-crazy girl with a typical need for attention.
Well at least I know what I want.
I want a man. Not a boy who thinks he can.
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Eunice! We have the same problems, girlie. But I met a guy, and he has some friends who are in desperate need of an awesome chick like you!!! So you MUST come to the next event. I demand it.
Also, I'm sorry you're going through all this. But I am happy I'm not alone.
Lastly, you're such a great writer! xoxo
Where the heck are you, and what are you doing these days? Always think about you this time of year, but you seem to have disappeared. Back in EP?
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